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Lost.Without.You.

When you laugh you'll feel my breath there
filling up your lungs. And when you cry,
those aren't your tears but I'm there
falling down your cheek.
And when you say you love him, taste me
I'm like poison on your tongue-
But when you're tired, if you're quiet,
you'll hear me singing you to sleep.
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[Tuesday
April 14th, 2009 at 1:09am]
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I will dance.

[Tuesday
December 30th, 2008 at 2:01pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

I don't think I've ever done one of these.. but maybe I just don't remember. Whatever. It's something to do.. and I have my hopes up way too high. Sucks.

IN 2008 I:Collapse )

2 Play the flute & I will dance.

[Monday
December 29th, 2008 at 11:41pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Today was so exciting! After work, that is. 3 people made my day. One person completely unexpectedly. AHH! so excited. I just hope said person gets on here and sees my replies and such.

I will dance.

Taken from Bill.. I just saw it today.. he posted it in Jan. Hah. [Friday
June 20th, 2008 at 4:02pm]
The Letter A

Are you available?: Nope.
What is your age?: 20
What annoys you?: Right now.. work.

The Letter B

Do you live in a big house?: Not really. Average, probably.
When is your birthday?: January 13, 1988
Who is your best friend?: Bill.. I don't know who else I'd name. Kristen and Beth but haven't seen or talked to them in a while.. I'm pathetic.

The Letter C
What's your favorite candy?: I do enjoy snow caps as well.. midnight milkyway.. in general, dark chocolate. Mounds!
Who's your crush?: The person who makes me unavailable.. but I don't consider it a 'crush.'
When was the last time you cried?: Last Friday night/Saturday morning.

The Letter D

Do you daydream?: Indeed.. those would be my dreams during my naps.
What's your favorite kind of dog?: Not tiny and not dressed up. Our dog was mixed.
what day of the week is it? Friday.

The Letter E

How do you like your eggs?: Scrambled or fried or hard-boiled.
Have you ever been in the emergency room?: Not that I know of.. unless I went to the emergency room with my nose.
What's the easiest thing ever to do?: Sleep.

The Letter F

Have you ever flown a plane?: I wish.
Do you use fly swatters?: I used them in school for the game.. and then on flies..
Have you ever used a foghorn?: I don't believe so.

The Letter G

Do you chew gum?: Yes.
Are you a giver or a taker?: Both.
Do you like gummy candies? Depends on mood/candy.

The Letter H

How are you?: Tired.
What color is your hair?: Red/Strawberry blonde

The Letter I

What's your favorite ice cream?: Depends on mood. The oatmeal cookie chunk sounds mighty tasty now.
Have you ever ice skated?: I have, twice.
Do you play an instrument?: Piano/keyboard.. but not in a while.

The Letter J

What's your favorite jelly bean brand?: Uh.. brand doesn't matter as far as I know.
Do you wear jewelry?: two necklaces, ring and I just put my earrings back in last night.

The Letter K

Who do you want to kill?: well, it used to be me.. but now.. nobody right now.
Do you want kids?: Maybe eventually, but not right now.
Where did you go for kindergarten? Eugene Field.. no longer a school.

The Letter L

Are you laid back?: I think so.
Do you lie?: Can't say I never have.. but not often

The Letter M

Whats your favorite movie?: Can't pick.
Do you still watch Disney movies?: Sure do. :]
Do you like mangos?: Yes.


The Letter N

Do you have a nickname?: Troutsniffer, Becca, Bunny, Jingles.. I used to have a lot.
What is your real name?: Rebecca
Whats your favorite number? 3/13
Do you prefer night over day?: Of course!

The Letter O

What's your one wish?: I'm not telling, either!
Are you an only child?: No.

The Letter P

What one fear are you most paranoid about? I would have to say, I'm afraid of losing everything as well.
What are your pet peeves?: Bad drivers are annoying! People saying something is gay or retarded.
What's a personality trait you look for in people?: Honesty, open-minded

The Letter Q

What's your favorite quote?: "what do you want to marry me for anyhow?" "So I can kiss you anytime I want."
or
"I'm just a girl standing in front of a boy asking him to love her."

I have many.. I love quotes.

Are you quick to judge people?: Can be, but not often.

The Letter R

Do you think you're always right? No.
Are you one to cry?: Never used to be.. things have changed, but I still don't cry over any little thing.

The Letter S

Do you prefer sun or rain?: Rain.
Do you like snow?: Definitely not.
What's your favorite season?: Autumn, then Spring.

The Letter T

What time is it?: 416pm
What time did you wake up?: 5:30am
When was the last time you slept in a tent?: I honestly can't remember.

The Letter U

Are you wearing underwear?: Yes.
Underwear or boxers?: Underwear.

The Letter V

What's the worst veggie?: Brussel sprouts, probably.
Where do you want to go on vacation?: Ireland.

The Letter W

What's your worst habit?: Being attached/pathetic.
Where do you live?: Normal, IL.
What's your worst fear?: Probably still the losing everything as well.. not sure what else. Well, not necessarily everything, but losing one of the things I could lose, even.

The Letter X

Have you ever had an x-ray?: On my teeth.
Have you seen the x-games? Not that I remember.
Do you own a xylophone?: No.

The Letter Y

Do you like the color yellow?: I guess.
What's one thing you yearn for? To be out of school.

The Letter Z

Whats your zodiac sign? Capricorn.
Do you believe in the zodiac?: Not really.
Favorite zoo animal?: Ellyphants! :]
2 Play the flute & I will dance.

[Monday
March 3rd, 2008 at 1:31pm]
Lucas: But our biggest regrets are not for the things we did... but the things we didn't do.
3 Play the flute & I will dance.

[Friday
October 26th, 2007 at 5:19pm]
Mmm, friends only. Comment to be added.. and I'm thinkin' of doin' a cut now.

Questions? Concerns? Comment with them.
Or maybe see this entry. It is from over a year ago, though.. so things might be different from them.
19 Play the flute & I will dance.

[Wednesday
March 21st, 2007 at 3:15pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Sooo.. accounting let out early.. but a lot. We got out at 1:50 pmish.. so I sat in here and Bryan and I figured out excel moreso.. well, yeah.

It's going to be five of us taking the test together on Friday.. at noon. [After math for Jeremy and myself] -- Jeremy, Kandra, Adam, Bryan and myself. Yeahh man. I want my crossword puzzle book. Oh well, I'll get it back soon enough. :] I love you, babe.

I just sat here listening to Mitch Hedburg as I finished my study guide for my next class.. which I now only have 13 minutes til! YAY! I passed a good hour and 40 minutes. Ches. Anyways.. I didn't even use my cd player batteries because I put it in the computer.. and sat in front of it. Wahoo!

I printed my article summary off as well.. which I completed before coming to accounting. Now I'm listening to "She's Everything" by Brad Paisley. Our cd, you betcha', bub.

I think I should work on my cover sheet for my paper. Oh shit! I have my claims paper, too. I have noooo idea what I'm going to do on immigration.. so perhaps I'll go to the library after class? I'm not sure. I have my paper done.. other than that. I need to work.. so I'm going to do that. Maybe I'll do a little research right now.. no, I need to finish my cover sheet. AGH. So much stuff.

Anyways.. I feel accomplished now because I can sit and pay attention moreso in class.. rather than working on the rest of the study guide.. cause I just finished it!

I'm also thinking about retirement now.. I need to go to one of my banks.. more likely I'll go to Busey, because it's closer to my house.. but I need to set up a Roth IRA or something. Right now.. it sounds like a good idea.. but then I'd need more hours in order to make my payments.. so maybe I'll wait until I have my car paid off.. that would be good. I only have until November of 2008.. that's not bad, right? I'll only be 20.. almost 21.. so yeah. Eight minutes now! Whoot. I don't think I'll do anything for my paper now.. eh.

I need to work on that tonight. I don't have anything for math.. cause we just took a test yesterday. Let's see.. maybe we'll get out of intro to business early?

Oh.. and what is that shit!? Midterm grades are up.. four of my five. I have a C in Service Learning? WHAT? Maybe it's because right now she only has that I have 16 hours and 10 minutes.. for my volunteering and then this Friday I will be giving her a time sheet for 15 hours and 55 minutes.. which will raise that up. yeahh.. seriously now. However.. my grade shouldn't be based on the volunteering amount.. that should just solely go with the scholarship. That is the stupidest shit ever.. but hey.. if it boosts my grade once I get all the hours.. whatever. I still need to write my paper and shit, too. Fuck. I'm stressing now. I don't work tonight, though. I think it's wrong to make any papers due the Friday we get back.. when we just found out the Friday before spring break. That is complete fucking bullshit. Now I feel so behind and stressed. Five minutes...

So much going on. This weekend will suck.. Friday is gonna suck.. but we're taking the test. I have to give my speech.. which shouldn't be bad.. whatever. The paper should actually be easy.. I need to calm the hell down.

I work tomorrow night.. that's not going to help. Wait, I don't work until 5:45.. oh right, I have volunteering after class. SHIT. Tomorrow I need to get my ass up before class.. and work. Or maybe tonight? I don't know... :/ CLAIMS PAPER is gonna suck. Three minutes. Posting now.. screw this. Gotta go to class..

8 Play the flute & I will dance.

Swiped from Bill. [Thursday
November 30th, 2006 at 11:06am]

yes, I'm a thief.Collapse )
10 Play the flute & I will dance.

[Friday
January 6th, 2006 at 9:17pm]
16 Play the flute & I will dance.

boys like you are a dime a dozen [Tuesday
January 3rd, 2006 at 12:00am]
[ mood | pissed off ]




and i'm not so sure if i'm sure of anything anymore well this is the last night that you'll be keepin secrets from me just hit the lights before you leave you know the million things you had to say sorry just just might have found it's way in there somehow someway but don't worry sweetie cause i already know and i'm not so sure if i'm sure of anything anymore well this is the last night that you'll be keepin secrets from me and you're so guilty it's disgusting he's been sneakin underneath your sheets and your hands have been in places that they probably shouldn't go but don't worry sweet cause i already know regardless if my pictures they don't line your mirror regardless you know that i'll still wait for your call regardless if my pictures they don't line your mirror regardless you know that i'll still wait for your call honestly this is the last time that i'll see you do you know what your girl's been up to?


SO, i actually tried yesterday [1/3/05] to make a friends cut on my journal.. friends list[lj].. and it didn't succeed. I didn't delete one damn person! that just.. irks me. I don't want to have a huge friends list.. and so just because you're considered.. does not mean you will be added. AND even if you are added, it does by NO means, mean you're staying.

40 Play the flute & I will dance.

She's somebody's hero, a hero to her baby with a skinned up knee, a little kiss is all she needs. [Saturday
October 1st, 2005 at 10:45am]
Okay.. so I guess I'm not done with this fucking internet shit. I should say I'm done with online journals [my own] and aim. I still might post on my internet journals.. but it will all be privately posted so only I can see it.

So.. how to get ahold of me:
snail mail. email. phone.. and I'll still say the best way is snail mail.. unless you like.. see me in person and can hand me a note.. cause that wouldn't cost money and it'd be faster.. but yeah. I read others journals sometimes.. but not all the time. I know that's how it was before.. but it's less now than it was then. and phone.. I might not answer... but then you still have the choice to leave a message..

blah. just signed on aim. -.- Need to.. to get a message.. maybe I should get all my away messages.. yeah man. well.. the ones I'd use for like.. other stuff..

.letsstartover.
.canyouhelpmerememberhowtosmile.

probably writing.reading.or.sleeping. call or text phone if want.
I heart specific people. I wouldn't hope that you're one of them;you probably aren't.

I won't be good enough for you.
6 Play the flute & I will dance.

[Monday
September 26th, 2005 at 9:11pm]

I'm done with this fucking internet shit. Done. Bye everyone.. it's been fun. or not. what-the-fuck-ever. Who the hell cares? Have nice lives.

-Me.

Best way to get ahold of me is.. snail mail and well, if you already have my address.. then.. there you go. If not.. you probably won't get it.. If you'd like it, you can email me.. theusedtwinkies@yahoo.com. I'll check it once daily for the first few days.. then that'll stop.
2 Play the flute & I will dance.

[Sunday
March 13th, 2005 at 12:26am]
hiatus begins now. just making this post so it can be public. contact me if you wish to know anything.
I will dance.

taken from Linda. [Saturday
February 19th, 2005 at 3:12pm]
[ mood | curious and red eyed. ]

If you woke up and I was in bed with you, what would be your first thought?
(Now post this in your LJ and find out what mine would be)

50 Play the flute & I will dance.

[Monday
February 7th, 2005 at 10:55pm]
[ mood | curious ]

oh. claudia is amusing. mhm. i really dislike julie in rainbow. GOSH.

anyways. I'm the only non-materialistic/traditionalist person in rainbow.
the roll call question was what our favorite valentine's present would be.

some that were said.
chocolate.
lots of money.
12 carnations.

dude. no.
my answer:
something thoughtful. no candy, chocolate or flowers.

now, I didn't say this.. but with the flower, there is ONE exception. i've never been a fan of roses, but now after phantom, I will say they are my favorite flower. I would accept a crimson red rose. single one. not a dozen. not even two. ONE. based on phantom of the opera. especially if it was really from erik. oh man. anyways.. I LOVE b&w pictures of roses. and even color ones of crimson red roses. *dies* yes. that is the ONE exception. but they didn't need that detail or anything.

so now, I ask.

What would be YOUR favorite valentine's gift?

oh. and it doesn't have to be see-able or keepable. it could be something that creates a memory. for example: some thoughtful things that i would like would be a simple hug or kiss. a cuddle session. a peck on the forehead. or the lips. just, thoughtful things like that. it doesn't have to be able to be wrapped up or held in the hand.

i must say, I am not a fan of valentine's day though.

NOW
DO THIS!!

If you read this, even if I don't speak to you often, you must post a memory of me. It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened. Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you.

8 Play the flute & I will dance.

my heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to begin with [Wednesday
February 2nd, 2005 at 5:35pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

officially changed my sn and on my new aim sn. email me if you would like to know what it is.


go here and turn your volume up.

make me look like that. now.
just let me die. damnit.

3 Play the flute & I will dance.

Go on and close your eyes go on imagine me there [Thursday
December 23rd, 2004 at 2:11pm]
[ mood | curious ]

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it
taken from LindaCollapse )
Don't pretend like you don't talk to your laundry.

Joe's going to be a lean mean ripping ass machine.

6 Play the flute & I will dance.

I would give my life just for a little death [Tuesday
December 21st, 2004 at 10:51pm]
[ mood | dirty ]

I totally pwned the goblin game.

http://www.deviantart.com/view/8388755/
theusedtwinkies (10:42:07 PM): I totally pwned that game!
theusedtwinkies (10:42:21 PM): 2277800 was my score..
theusedtwinkies (10:42:24 PM): level 32
theusedtwinkies (10:42:28 PM): gold 743300
Sweetpea (10:42:57 PM): go Dolly!

Sweetpea cheered me on. Whoop. After I had died. Lol. I pwned the fishie game too... but I pwned the goblin game even more.. *nods*

well, I'm feeling mighty dirty.. with the exception of my mouth and hair.. [they're clean].. so I'm off to take my orange bath!

What am I supposed to do
Sit around and wait for you
Well I can't do that
And there's no turning back
I need time to move on
I need love to feel strong
'Cause I've got time to think it through
And maybe I'm too good for you, oh

4 Play the flute & I will dance.

take any of these.. comment with your answers and I'll give you your results. [Thursday
December 16th, 2004 at 7:44pm]
[ mood | sick ]

what's your personality?Collapse )

yeah.. gonna type my entry now.. and then go finish make-up work and stuff.

sorry if there are typos.. my hands are freezing and I'm sickkk.

4 Play the flute & I will dance.

Please don't leave me without saying goodbye.. [Friday
December 10th, 2004 at 8:35pm]
[ mood | sick, hot as hell, cold as ice ]


Taken from Linda
Name:
Age:
Where on earth do you live?:
Reason(s) behind your LJ username:
5 things you want to do/accomplish before you die:
What makes you happy?:
What have you been listening to lately?:
Do you enjoy reading my LJ?:
If so, why?:
Interesting fact about you:
Are you in love at the moment?:
Favorite destination:
Favorite quote:
Will you post this in your LJ?:

RECOMMEND
A movie:
A book:
A musical artist, song, or album:
Your fav. LJ user (not on my list already) I should/could befriend and why:

11 Play the flute & I will dance.

My wishlist sequel [Friday
December 10th, 2004 at 6:05pm]
[ mood | sick, hot as hell, cold as ice ]

PS.
The girl to hold could be just friends.. or more.

I will dance.

my wishlist [Thursday
December 9th, 2004 at 3:39pm]
[ mood | i'm a sickie ]

okay, well, I'm a sickie.. so I'm just going to update this really fast and put this thing..
I will update later with my Wednesday & Thursday.. but I really am a sickie. [Wednesday before 6th hour started, I went to the nurse and home.. and then today [Thursday] I stayed home.. I'm only on the computer so I could email 3 teachers about make-up.. one about reading I can do so I'm just behind on the questions about it.. [♥ Hunchback anyways] and then the other 2 about when I make-up quizzes.]

yay I just got an email from Lelm - the one about reading so the more important one! whoo!
I love Lelm! She's awesome. I'm so glad she teaches at Normal now.. instead of West.

SO, this is taken from Meredith.

Step one
Make a journal post. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a snape/hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on dvd") to really big ("all I want for christmas is a new car /computer/house/tv"). The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.
Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your journal, or link to this post so that the holiday joy will spread.

Step two
Surf around your friends' list to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part: if you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true.
Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred basset hound for free--do it.
You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy.
Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call. There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. and you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.


so, here's my wish list: [notes in bold]
1 - something that has thought put into it.
I already had a tough time making a list for Joe & Teresa.. hmm.
2 - Good cds/dvds/books
3 - band shirts/hoddies
4 - girl to hold/hold me who loves me as much as I love her.
5 - or a guy as a friend - nothing more - to hold/hold me who loves me as much as I love him
6 - pocket knife
7 - Egyptian cotton pillow cases
8 - The Perks of Being a Wallflower
9 - To Kill A Mockingbird
10 - uhh.. [added now - 3:38 pm 12/9/04 -- I guess a laptop.. but I know nobody will get that.. so yeah. I'm just thinking today that it'd be nice cause I could type my entry.. / email my teachers without having to come down here.. I'm freezing.. and my room is nice.. and yeah. /addition]

wow! I actually thought of 9 things!

Email me at theusedtwinkies@yahoo.com or talk on aim if you need my address.
I've actually written a lot.. so yeah.. when I DO update.. it will be long.

I will dance.

Entry for Maddy-son. [Tuesday
December 7th, 2004 at 6:40pm]
[ mood | so effin sick. ]

Maddy-son (5:46:27 PM): i love youuu

Auto response from theusedtwinkies (5:46:27 PM): what can i say?
wheres that girl from last night
whos slept on that side
and looks just like you do?

you can sleep in your own bed tonight
sleep away a silent pain
screaming out my name
you can sleep in your own bed tonight
i hope for your sake you dont wake up
as broken as i am


Maddy-son (5:47:07 PM): never forget me, im always here, ILOVEYOUSOMUCHBECCA-SON.
Maddy-son signed on at 5:57:50 PM.
Maddy-son signed off at 6:24:29 PM.

I hearts my Maddy-son.

Entry to come later.

2 Play the flute & I will dance.

Borrowed. [Monday
December 6th, 2004 at 5:01pm]
Comment anonymously with your true feelings, thoughts, and opinions about me. Say whatever you have always held back for fear of hurting my feelings or showing the e-world that you actually like me. IP logging is turned off.
12 Play the flute & I will dance.

[Saturday
December 4th, 2004 at 7:26pm]
1. Think of a word you would use to describe me.
2. Go to Google Image Search and search for that word.
3. Select the picture you see as most fitting, and post it as a reply.
Explanations are mandatory.
4. Post this meme in your journal.

stolen from corray who stole it from veronica! <3
2 Play the flute & I will dance.

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